well it's really out there, i found it on the old forum a while ago and i recently refound it at the TM fansite here:
http://www.leeranaldo.net/starfieldroad/Pages/about.htm
you know what's weird, this is the song i had in mind - and kept playing - when i finally decided to go on and tell the girl i was obsessed with that i liked her.
what a ruin man...