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Oh yeah! I don't even think of pot as a drug anymore. From that point I moved on to prescriptions which are the wrst! I swear the withdrawls are as close as you can get to those from heroin. If I could do it over again I would not even try any of that shit. I have an extremly addictive personality. Drugs, food ciggarettes. I have OCD so this compounds the problem because I actually do need some of the scripts I take.
I feel that I am getting a little less dependant these days though. I can actually admit to myself that yes I am a pill junkie. Yes I have to deal with it. I have 2 kids and a husband so I cannot just let the shit take me over. If I really do believe in God I have to face my shortcomings cause they are affecting the lives of those around me.
It will be a problem that I have to deal with for the rest of my life. But I brought it on myself.
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